Perspective Granted

Now that we have had everything ready to adopt: finances, home study, nursery, teaching the boys, telling everyone we know, creating profiles on Instagram, Facebook, adoption .com, and here, it‘s been hard not to get into a mindset of “waiting“. It‘s a daily battle for me and I know that it has been weighing on my time with the boys. They can tell that I’m distracted and I’ve been disappointed with myself. In the recent weeks I have prayed for guidance and relief. And boy did I get it!

This last week, starting with poor Ezra, we all got the stomach flu. We were all violently ill, covered in unmentionables, and begging to return to our normal selves. When Ezra and Noah finally found relief, I found myself overwhelmed with gratitude for the every day. The mundane even. I missed doing the dishes and making pb and honey sandwiches. This trial granted me what I needed. Perspective. Sweet *smelly* Perspective 🙏🏻

It is still hard to wait to meet our little girl but I’m ready to go back to our current normal. Just the boys and I hanging out all day, doing school work, playing with cars/trains, coloring, and eating anything and everything!! Heavenly Father has always answered my prayers. And maybe it wasn‘t the way I wanted!! haha. But looking back, I’m able to see His hand in changing my outlook 💖 I am so grateful for Him and for His listening to the prayers of an imperfect mommy just trying to do her best. 💝 Maybe my next lesson will be slightly less painful 😅 haha