Oh, Mother

A mother... Even as I begin to think about what this word means to me, I start to tear up. It is so sacred to me and that is all owed to this woman you see here. She gave greater sacrifice for my brother and I than I will ever understand. She always did what was best for my us `, despite how hard it was or how much of a "mean mom" it made her. She home schooled us as soon as we asked, she was involved in every single extra curricular activity we did, and every sport. If she was not running the show, she was involved in every detail possible. A good portion of my friends called her "mom" and she was just fine with that, but I wasn't! She was "mine". Even though I had done nothing to deserve her, she was my mother. Despite my father and my relationship being awful and him being very unkind to us both, I count myself as having a blessed childhood because of her. Her love served as a protection from every bad thing that we faced. I owe her so much, I will never be able to repay her. Except, of course, as I know she would say, to be the same kind of mother to my own children. And I hope I can be.

Every child, however unwilling I was to share back then, does deserve a mother like the one I had. I am grateful that as I have become a mom twice in the last few years that my instincts are to mother as she did. To let love and council be there to guide them and failure to happen when it is necessary in order to teach a lesson. And luckily, when I am feeling like I am falling short, I can call on her for advice. Although, every time I do, she does as she has always done. She reminds me of my Heavenly Father's and her own love for me, says nothing that directly answers my question, and lets me find the answer for myself. She would be terribly frustrating to me if I didn't love and appreciate her so much. I hope though, that I will have the same effect that she has had on me, on my own children. I pray constantly for the child that will make me a mother for the third time. But I pray even more often for her first mother, that will have made it possible for me to become a mother like the one I have, again.